Throw Me An Elbow, And I'd Throw It Right Back

My battlefield

I started playing basketball when I was just 13, I think after watching Michael Jordan in 'Space Jam'. Back then, I have a group of friends who were into basketball as well. We would play basketball during Pendidikan Jasmani classes, and after school as well. We would have fun, and we love our basketball so much, we would camp on the basketball court itself if Pak Guard let us, or play in the rain. We were basketball junkies back then - and that was the reason why I was a dark, skinny young boy growing up. My mom almost disowned me because she said I don't look like her son anymore -___-" People dark a bit only mah!

My weapon

12 years on, I don't see basketball as a fun sport anymore. Well, not to say it's not fun at all lah, but I see the basketball court as a battlefield - a place where only the fittest will survive. The fun game I used to know is not that fun anymore: my friends are not so passionate about the sport anymore and most of us are too busy to hit the courts, now that we are all adults. 

But these couple of years, the basketball court is a place where I could escape to. Life didn't really go according to how I wanted it to at times, and while some can afford to fly to an island for a holiday, the only place I know I can let it all out is the basketball court. I know that for a two good hours, I'll be able to just forget what's on my mind. 

A good basketball game is the perfect distraction to all the mess that is going around. When I'm sad, I go to the court. When I feel lonely, I go to the court. When I'm angry, I go to the court. I feel that the basketball court is the only place I could let my competitive instincts rule me and a place where I can smile at the challenge of playing against someone better. It's a place where when someone throws me an elbow, I can throw it right back. Or when someone taunts me, I'll taunt them back with the game-winning shot. Sometimes there is no better feeling than to look at your opponents' dejected faces, and that, as bad as it may sound, it does put a smile on mine. 

From what used to be my playground, to what I call it my battlefield now, I sometimes think basketball is what keeps me sane =)

A Random Quote: "If I Die"

If I die, I die knowing I'd loved her with all my heart. If I die, she will regret knowing she has lost the person who had loved her the most.


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All I Want To Do Is Run

“I was running before I hit the trees, my clothes strewn out behind me like a trail of crumbs — as if I wanted to find my way back. It was almost too easy now to phase. I didn’t have to think. My body already knew where I was going and, before I asked it to, it gave me what I wanted. I had four legs now, and I was flying.

The trees blurred into a sea of black flowing around me. My muscles bunched and released in an effortless rhythm. I could run like this for days and I would not be tired. Maybe, this time, I wouldn’t stop.”

Have you ever experienced, in one point of your life, that you just feel like running away and never come back? Where you leave everything behind and just run as far and as fast as you could, and never look back? Like nothing in the world matters to you anymore?

I did. I have thought about running away countless times, to anywhere my heart takes me. They say we should not run away from our problems, instead we should stand up and fight them. And I totally agree with them on that. I do not endorse running away from all of your problems, but a little breather won’t hurt, right? How long can you fight a war - a war that could potentially wipe off your existence - without taking time off to ponder about your next move?

It’s not necessary a bad thing, sometimes, to just run and forget about all your problems, all that mess and all the undefined feelings you have. I mean, who doesn’t want to run to a place where you can lie down and look at the stars, hear the waves and just let your mind wander off. A place where you can cry all you want, or shout as loud as can. A place where you can be who you want without people judging you, or a place where you can just run as far as your legs can take you.

I guess what I’m trying to say here is that it is perfectly OK if you think of running away sometimes. Not from all of your problems because you still would have to face them when you come back, but a little time alone might be all that you need.

So run; run as far as you could! Nobody is stopping you, and nobody should. It is your life after all, so take control of it!

And how I wish I could be Jacob Black now - phasing and running as far and as fast as I could. Lucky bugger!

How Do You Know When You Are In Love?

* I kinda wrote this ages ago and I stumbled upon it when I was going through my old blogs, so I thought I might as well share it here =)

Is it when your heart skips a beat everytime you see her?

Is it when your heart melts everytime you see her smile?

Is it when your world stops when she is around?

Is it when she’s around, nothing in the world matters anymore?

Is it when she’s around, the stars and moon shines brighter at night?

Is it when you would do anything in the world for her just to see her smile?

Is it when you think about her every second of the day?

Is it when you miss her every second of the day when she is not with you?

Is it when you find yourself smiling to yourself when you think about her?

Is it when you find yourself dying when she is mad at you?

Is it when you find yourself wanting only the best for her?

Is it when you find yourself spending all of your wish on her?

The Broken Piece by nickleschow

The Broken Piece
by nickleschow

A piece of my heart tells me to move on
A piece of my heart needs a place to turn upon
A piece of my heart wants our memories gone
But the other piece just wants to hold on

A piece of my heart wants me to let go
A piece of my heart is breaking slow
A piece of my heart wants me to forget all that we know
But the other piece just wants the love to grow

A piece of my heart can only fall short for so long
A piece of my heart is not at all strong
A piece of my heart has been aching all along
But the other piece knows where it wants to belong

A piece of my heart wants me to forget
A piece of my heart says I will regret
A piece of my heart is just too upset
But the other piece is not ready to give up just yet

A piece of my heart is lonely
A piece of my heart is feeling empty
But the other piece loves you, the one and the only

‘The Broken Piece’ by nickleschow © 2009

Confessions Of A Broken Hearted by nickleschow

This is for the ones who have had their hearts-broken, those who have waited for love, those who have had their love not returned, those who have loved with all their heart, those who have had their love rejected. If, once in your life, you would have to go through all these, the most important thing is to hold on; knowing after all the pain and heartbreaks, you never gave up hope

Confessions Of A Broken Hearted
by nickleschow

How much more can one’s heart take
When all I ever think of is you
Doesn’t matter if the moon turns blue
Loving you, you know it’s true

How much more can one’s heart take
When all you do is look the other way
Doesn’t matter if the rivers stray
I’ll continue loving you for another day

How much more can one’s heart take
When all I ever dream of is your smile
Doesn’t matter if the tide goes wild
For you, I’d still walk the extra mile

How much more can one’s heart take
When you’re as pretty as Autumn’s leaf
Doesn’t matter if the winds don’t heave
No matter what, you know I’ll never leave

How much more can one’s heart take
When all I long for is to hear you speak
Doesn’t matter if the birds don’t weep
Without you I’m just so weak

How much more can one’s heart take
When your eyes make it all so great
Doesn’t matter if the stars don’t wake
Losing you, my heart will break

‘Confessions Of A Broken Hearted’ by nickleschow © 2009

The Saddest Story Love Has Ever Told

“When you’re dreaming with a broken heart/ The waking up is the hardest part/ You roll outta bed and down on your knees/ And for the moment you can hardly breathe/ Wondering was she really here?/ Is she standing in my room?/ No she’s not, ‘cause she’s gone” - John Mayer, Dreaming With A Broken Heart

Once upon a time, there lived a boy and a girl. They were very much in love. No matter what life threw at them, they faced it together - hand in hand, heart with heart - and their love for each other grew stronger by the day. They were inseparable.

One day, the boy asked the girl to marry him. Being so in love, that was the only thing left to do. The girl looked at the boy and said: “I will marry you, but you must first prove your love to me. You have to live a day without me.”

The boy was shocked. Even though he knew it would be hard for him to do, hesitantly, the boy agreed. He knew that he love her enough to prove that he can live one day without her. They have been through thick and thin, and the boy knew that 24 hours is not much of a hurdle for them.

The next day, the boy went to her house with a ring and a rose. But she wasn’t there. Instead, the girl’s mother greeted him, and with tears in her eyes, told the boy that the girl passed away the night before. Little did the boy know, the day the boy proposed to the girl, she found out that she has only 24 hours to live because she was ill. She loved him too much to let him see her go.

The mother handed the boy a letter written by the girl. He broke down after reading the letter. The letter read:

“You did it, my love. You can live without me. Now, I want you to do this everyday. I will miss you and I will always love you.”

If You, I Will

“Would I walk through fire/ Just to be with you, to be with you, yeah/ Would I cross an ocean/ Just to hold you, yeah/ Would I give up all I have / To see you smile, to see you smile/ Would I walk through hell and not think twice/ Baby I would, Baby I will/ Baby I could, Baby I can/ Do anything you ask me/ Baby I can, Baby I could/ Baby I would” - O-Town - Baby I Would

If you are down, I will be there to hold you back up.
If you fall, I will be there to catch you.
If you jump, I will be there to break your fall.
If you are lost, I will be the light that shine your way.
If you can’t walk, I will run the extra mile for you.
If you need me, I will be there.
If you cry, I will put the smile back.
If you are lonely, I will be your star.
If your world is dark, I will be your sunshine.
If your world is without a song, I will sing the tune.

10 Things I Like About You

“I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you’re always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call. But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.” - 10 Things I Hate About You

10 Things I Like About You
1) Your smile and the goofy way that you laugh
2) How you pretend not to care about me but in fact you do
3) How you would always try to make me jealous even though you know I hate it
4) How you seem so strong on the outside, but you are actually the sweetest thing inside
5) How we would just lie down and talk about nothing till the wee hours of the morning
6) How you would stroke my hair and call it yours
7) The way you look at me when I close my eyes, then you closed your eyes and I look at you
8) How you would give me a peck on my cheek when I least expect it
9) How you would randomly text me, as little as that may be
10) How you would lean close to me so that I could hug you

You Are Here For A Reason

“You ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other peoples lives have we been in, we’re we a part of someone’s life when their dreams came true, or were we there when their dreams died. Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone else’s life, and not even know it.”

Do you find yourself asking what’s your purpose in life? Or why are you here on Earth in the first place? Have you ever find yourself wondering what would it be like if you are not here anymore? Would you be missed? Would people know you are here in the first place?

As strange as it may sound - no matter how much you dislike your life or no matter how much you think your life sucks - you are here for a reason. You might not know it now, you might not know why, but you are here for a reason. It doesn’t matter how small you are, you could be a big part of someone else’s life and you might not know it. It doesn’t matter if you know that particular someone - it might just be some stranger you meet on the streets - you will never know what your smile means to them. Your smile can light up his/her life, or better yet, your smile might be the sign they were waiting for all this while, to give them a reason to just hold on for another day.

You are here for a reason. You could be a big part of someone else’s life and not even know it. Smile, because you do not know how many people are falling in love with your smile. Live your life, for good things happen when you least expect it.